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For the past month, I've been thinking over my journey and my motives, and really, there were pet convictions I wanted confirmation for. Things I cared more about than much of anything else. And then there was a moral situation where I thought I was making a biblical decision, and when I realized I had done the opposite, I was devastated and felt eviscerated. I needed spiritual healing (a therapist probably wouldn't have hurt, either). So I searched for a place that could offer both confirmation and healing. These are convenience issues, though, and not good enough reasons to bang on the doors of the semi-local parish for who knows how many years before being let in.
So knowing that, and knowing my one avenue into Orthodoxy is less than clear, I'm going to return to Protestantism for now. I'll continue to learn about Orthodoxy and hopefully grow as a result, but I don't see another sane option at this point. God knows what the future holds, He knows my heart better than I do, and I trust both His justice and mercy more than anything else. Maybe at another time, the path will be clearer. But it appears the desert is not done with me yet.
I hope other inquirers find a smoother path, and make less trouble for themselves than I have. There is so much in Orthodoxy, so I certainly hope this post is not a discouragement. It is simply another twist in my broken journey.
So knowing that, and knowing my one avenue into Orthodoxy is less than clear, I'm going to return to Protestantism for now. I'll continue to learn about Orthodoxy and hopefully grow as a result, but I don't see another sane option at this point. God knows what the future holds, He knows my heart better than I do, and I trust both His justice and mercy more than anything else. Maybe at another time, the path will be clearer. But it appears the desert is not done with me yet.
I hope other inquirers find a smoother path, and make less trouble for themselves than I have. There is so much in Orthodoxy, so I certainly hope this post is not a discouragement. It is simply another twist in my broken journey.