May the Lord grant that you realize that you are loved not only by those around you, but, by Him...and may He help you realize your potential, your true worth, and grant you comfort and a sense of security.
Lord have mercy!
Pray to Saint Porphyrios of Kafsokalyvia,they say that he helps a lot with mental illness.
You might also need help with antistress pills or try valeriana herb if you want it.
No matter what you did and decide to do I really hope that God will heal you permanetly!