- Nov 1, 2007
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- New South Wales Sydney Australia
Metastatic breast cancer to the brain, she is 78 and has refused treatment, I know 78 is a good amount of years, but to die this way, my brother is intellectually disabled and she is his world, she has not prepared him, he knows something serious is wrong and has basically gone crazy :'( I am in a living hell and I know I bought it upon myself, because I wished that I did not have to worry about her and him and they would be better off in heaven, safe from this world, I actually wished her dead on Friday three times because I thought she was getting demented and was hassling me and I was so sick and exhausted and I told her months ago to see a doctor as I knew she was not well and she never prepared my brother, she went into hospital on Monday, so after three days in hospital he lost it and there was nowhere we could leave him. I feel so guilty and evil and cursed I just want my life to end, I showed her no love or understanding or patience and the steroids and the tumor are making her lash out at me, I know I deserve that and worse. God please forgive me.