I would ask everyone to please keep praying for me and my friend. I have prayed for almost a year now that God would work in our lives and bring about a reconciliation with each other but more so with him, I have left prayer requests on the alter during Sunday mass every time I attend church yet I have grown horribly despondent these last few weeks due to seeing no progress and even more so due to things actually getting worse, now my friend cannot even look me in the face and I cant seem to get in a proper conversation with them. I have, in my fear and anxiety fallen to sin to try and escape this situation. I am always angry, anxious, afraid and feeling abandoned. I do not know how much longer I can go on and whether God will help us. I have tried turning to the holy Theotokos for help and she has helped me to try and stay in control of my senses and yet i continue to fail over and over, yet I cannot see the light in this situation. I ask all of you who read this to please keep me in your prayers if even in a few words. " The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much." and many of you if not all of you are better then I. May God have mercy on me a sinner and save me and my friend from a life leading to death.