Yes, born orthodox I attended Russian orthodox church untill my teen years and then moved on to Greek Orthodox Church at which I had served untill around 2015. So, yes, I know a bit about Orthodox extensive focus on rituals and services. I know they do read the Gospel during the service but there is very little time spent on sermons, on many occasions there were not sermons given at all, the teaching about the Word was almost absent. I knew little about the teachings of the Bible untill I picked it up and started reading myself. Up to that point, I was very good at kissing and bowing before the icons, lightening the candles and crossing myself every other minute etc ..but I knew far less what the Word has to say about the righteous living. In comparison to other denominations, even to Catholics who also place a lot of time and effort into rituals and services, they seem to preach the Bible to the audience more. Orthodox seem to be too pre-occupied doing the opposite. Sorry, but this is my observation from 30 odd years of experience at the Orthodox Church. Blessings
Then your parents and possibly your clergy failed, not Orthodoxy, and I'm sorry that happened. No one explained to you how every element of the service worships and presents Christ and echoes Scripture, why we do all these things, and what is Tradition vs. personal piety, and that is definitely wrong. Maybe my experience with Orthodoxy is unusual, but as far as I know, Church Fathers such as St. John Chrysostom exhort the faithful to read and know Scripture outside of the services, and all of the priests I've encountered praise and encourage personal Scripture reading over and above the daily Gospel and Epistle, though you start there and make that a habit first (always ask your priest!). The only caution I've seen is to not get too much into private interpretation. Finally, prayer and reading of Scripture is a large part of what many monastics do. Confession is where individualized advice comes into play, and your priest should be available to talk in between Confessions, if you need prayer or guidance. If your experience falls short of this, you're seeing the weakness of people. Pray for them.
However, like one of my kids, you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink. And I tell them frequently that I can't have their faith for them, and they can't borrow mine. I can only raise them in this Tradition, demonstrate and explain as much as possible, and put them in as many instructive settings as I can so they can learn from other Orthodox Christians, too (sometimes it's better coming from a nonparent). If my disinterested child closes their ears and blocks the instruction out of their minds and hearts, there's nothing I or anyone else can do until they decide they need God and Orthodoxy. So while it's definitely frustrating and disheartening to be told there's a river but not really shown how to drink from it, it's your job now to figure those things out for yourself, if you choose. You're an adult, and it's on your own head. Maybe your formative years made it harder to connect with the Faith, but it's not impossible.
I share a similar experience, but from the Protestant side. I went to church twice on Sundays and every Wednesday. Choir, Sunday school, youth group, etc. But faith wasn't actively taught at home, and while we talked about the Bible a lot at church, I'd never read it and couldn't tell you where most of the books were (I wasn't Baptist growing up, lol). On top of that, I had bad interpersonal experiences in my childhood church, so I grew into an adolescent who hated God and Christians, instead of putting the responsibility on the specific people who behaved poorly and actually forgiving them. When I was shaken out of that cloud and decided to read Scripture for myself, it had a similar effect on me as you. But you know the rest--it just wasn't enough. Years ago, someone here used the metaphor of a precious stone for Scripture. You may have the jewel, but it's not in its proper setting. Orthodoxy is that setting which gives Scripture its context, and yes, it's often ornate. This isn't a bad thing, and having a bigger picture doesn't detract from the beauty of the stone. Hopefully you'll see that one day.